what a wonderful world but something is still missing

since i haven't really been updating my blogg.. i wanna tell u all bout my hlidayy.. owkayy.. as u cn see.. i havnt tched this laptop for about 7/10 days of my holidayy.. well.. its bcuz i've been hlpin my grandma's sporting.. kind.. and open minded and also the one who i am always 'curhat' with.. owkayy.. let me introduce u 2 my beloved auntie sri... hehe.. ( jan malu2 ) which may now be at my grandma's house where she works.. actually she was borrowed from my mom because my mom will not be at home for a couple of days because she has to go to the hospital to recover.. in the mean time.. auntie sri was here helping uss... she was soo kind.. ehe.. well.. nthn.. well.. she taught me how exactly to cook.. and i managed to learn about 20+ kinds of food recipes.. well.. also i expirienced something with herr which was quite exciting.. well.. thenn.. she taught me how to seperate the onions and garlics from its layers.. well.. with a knifee... alsoo.. she taught ben about the history of indonesiaa which was quite... funn.. alsoo.. she always brightened my day and also my family's day.. she also did lots of things mainly with me.. likee.. washing and cleaning the front car parking area.. and also wee cleaned the whole housee.. (interior and exteriorr) we cleaned the balcony.. we also did some gardening at our gardenn.. also we cleaned the kitchen.. we cleaned the dining room.. and also all the rooms.. (computer room excluded).. well.. also.. we watched twillight (me sis and auntie srii).. we also discussed lots of things happy things and sad ones too.. likee.. eventhough the servants are like cleaning ur house and everything.. they should get some trust from u.. not a little.. but a huge amount of trust... besides they're the one who did ur laundry and everything.. alsoo.. we did the laundry togetherr.. we ironed the clothes togetherr.. and also we watched tv togetherr.. well.. aunty sri was like the bestest friend i would ever hadd.. and also for my family even for my parents she's a part of our family.. we love yaa... now she's not here.. soo.. i think i should do everything myself.. cooking.. laundry.. cleaning.. everythingg.. (maybe minus the ironingg).. i now kinda miss auntie srii.. well.. i really doo.. besides who would never miss anyone who had been accompanying yourself the whole timee.. thanks auntie for giving me the bestest holiday.. ill keep it as a precious gift from Allah.. which means u are the bestttt...

me and auntie srii posing at our favorite and eventful place which has quite nice contrastic view.. see... it looks fine right... hehe.. it doess..

i like the view because its black btw.. me and auntie sri has some kind of incident here from which is the reason why its black... teheeeee..

Tuesday..

Today.. as u guys can see.. i was very2 supremely bored.. wow.. until.. auntie sri and i cooked lunch for my bros and sis plus uncle and aunt.. woww.. it was my first time cooking this squid thing and this veggie thing.. it was quite an exciting and impressive moment for me.. hehe.. why?? because the food tasted veryy deli deli delicious.. dat is why.. hehe.. owkay.. then in the afternoon.. shuraa.. my sistarrr.. came to my housee.. actually me n uncle dien picked her up.. not using a car.. but a BICYCLE.. ahaha.. well.. my uncle laa pakai bicycle.. me.. walking with my dad's flip flops.. ahah.. i actually borrowed it.. well.. its not that bad isn't it.. well.. owkayy.. thenn we chit chatted.. until its about idk 6.30.. thenn me n my sis walked shuraa to her door.. ahha.. yeaphh... then we went home and went to the hspital... to visit my beloved beautiful, gorgeous, dazzling, slim, chic and fashionable mom.. why?? well figure your ass off it.. even my budster doesnt know about this, yett.. ahah.. but i am sure that i won't tell anyone.. maybe even my girls.. idk.. well.. there's a secret about this.. well.. hope amir is online right noww.. ahah.. owkayy.. well.. now here's mee.. here .. chatting wif my sis shuraa.. kk.. im off.. au revoir...

B'day boyy

happy birthdayy.. too.. my... lil... brotherr.. my lil white dudee.. aha... Muhammad Amirul Shadinil a.k.a. ben... hee... happy belated 7th bdayy.. benn.. hope u get ur dream presentt.. hee.. wohoo.. well.. actually it was on the 17th of marchh.. heheh.. sorry benn.. here's a song to you..

Happy birthday no cake
happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday to ben happy birthday no cake

btw i forgot.. here's a picture of the lil white dude..

last day of school

hari ini adalah.. aahaha.. bh.. mmbh.. owkayy.. today was the last day of school.. hehe.. which was fun.. ahhaa.. i got to knw that the girls has picked a name for their gang which is iRock... yeaphh.. credits to u guyss.. i wore pe shirt today becausee.. qilah txted me ystrday on da phne.. she tld me to wear pe shirt today.. soo.. i wear laa.. ahaha... school.. ok.. but.. smething... just a little something pissed mee.. ahah.. nda waa.. no wayy.. oww yeeaaa... todayss iman's bdayy... ahaha.. owkayy.. happy bday mann.. keep on bein gay.. ahaha... owkayy.. classes was ok.. geo test.. okk.. malay test ok.. everything was perfect todayy.. i went homee.. and i dun go to ugama schooll.. because of some matter.. surprisingly my dad told me and my othr sibs. to get ready cuz we are gonna go to bandarr... ahah.. me n my sis.. excitedd... ahhaa... owkayy.. the 1st destination.. was at the mall... we went there actually to buy my brothr's ps3 games.. well.. me n my sis were actually planning to shop there.. but eekkk.. no way.. butt... before we went to the shop which is on the top floor.. me n my sis ipod... soo.. my dad said.. we will go there later.. soo.. we went upstairs.. and my bro bought 3 ps3 gamess.. well.. killzone2 skate 2 and endwar.. well.. then we went downstairs.. thenn.. we went to the ipod thinggy.. my dad bought me smething there where as now.. only hafiz knows what in the hell am i buying from there.. owkayy.. i admit it.. i was like kambang to buy that thing.. soo.. i kinda forgot about askin the guy how this how that.. soo.. i just came out with the thing... u knww.. owkayy. then we went to hua ho.. hee.. there i bought one denim trous. which was diesel.. and umm.. 2 B.U.M tshirts.. owkay.. its my lucky dayy.. hahah.. then we eat.. then finish.. owkayy. now im tryin to figure out how to.. idkk.. owkayy.. im off.. au revoir..

it's timee..

todayy.. well. owkayy... today was likee.. duhh.. fun pluss.. a very critical thing where as.. i can't talk about itt.. well.. i can't even talk to my friends.. well.. sorry guyss.. huh.. well... guess like i was very2 upset.. owkayy.. back to the happy part.. i went too temburonggg.. aahahah.. har har harr... bh apaknn.. haha.. owkayy.. it was my first timee.. ahaha,, which is kinda imbarasing.. i was really excited... i was disspaointed because there is only 1 restaurant 1 saloon and 3 tourist gift shop... ahaha.. well.. kinda boringg.. i was there with my teach. cigu rudyyy.. ahaha.. well.. duhh.. fun.. for the syarahan thingg... wahaha... well.. thenn.. well.. i gott 6th position out of 7... ahah.. imbarasinggg... ahahah.. well.. maybe thats all.. cuz.. i am soo soo boredd.. hehe.. well.. owkayy.. byee,, im off au revoir..

Wish me luck..

Since tommorow is my bigest day.. i hope dat all of u will wish me luckk.. ahaha.. owkayy.. wish me luck..

syarahan and speech..

todayy was quite awkward.. well.. because of one thing i get lots of probs.. today we got a commerce test but thats noo biggiee.. well.. the truth im in a jealous situation.. well. can't even tell.. well.. becausee... my budster didn't even talk to me for the whole day but i was there for him.. bh gayy.. aha.. but banar.. aku dpn2 nya udh 2 ahh.. tpi nda jua kana layan.. huh.. damn.. wats with the kid anyway.. well.. owkayy.. aha.. today alsoo.. i wore my dad's belt which he gave 2 me.. kind of a fam. legacy.. ahha.. well.. its not just an ordinary belt.. its a YSL beltt.. u knw wt YSL means?? it means 'Yves Saint Laurent' see.. well.. its nicee.. and awesomee.. mizan.. of u dunno this brand just see the designer links ive putted in my blog.. yeaph.. well.. also.. todayy... about the speech.. mr ramesh was acting like kinda bad and speaking with a high tonee.. well.. this spoiled my mood... because.. he said that if i can't memorize the speech by tues. im over of bein a speaker of the school's speech team.. well.. also after that he MAKES FUN OF MEE... like i dun have feelings.. well let me tell yahhh smethangg.. I HAVEEE FEEL-INGS.. if u dun knw wat FEELINGS mean.. check it on ur oxford dict. yeahh.. f u dun knw the spelling.. itss.. F E E L I N G S.. yeah.. see.. well.. wat i am gonna doo is.. impress his damn ears and eyesss.. and also.. let him sit there with his jaw droping.. and im gonna let him pee on the chair of his impressness to moir.. well.. wat da heck am i sayin.. im gonna private this blogg.. i am.. so that no one will see thiss.. huh.. well.. also.. todayy.. i dun really hve my gang or wat ever they are.. i think irock.. thats wat they r callin them selvess.. well.. idkk.. i am not jealous in any way owkayy.. i just wanna sayy..

congratulations to guys.. u are now friends wif azibb

well.. the reason why i say this is becausee they've been stugling to be close to him again.. well.. i can't even say a word.. owkayy.. well.. since my place was replaced to be in front.. my life has changed since then.. a lot of things missing.. its about friendshipp.. im not even close enough wif my friends and gang and even my budster.. idk whyy butt i am gonna work this out.. well.. hpe they will not read my bloggggaaaa... ahaha.. owkay.. whee.. wish me luck for syarahan on mondayy... well good luck zul from jackk.. ahha.. owkayy i am off soo.. au revoir..

long time with no postss...

well.. these days are busy days for me.. soo i cannot post.. msa tyme a2 x aku post tyme.. cutiii..

long time with no postss...

well.. these days are busy days for me.. soo i cannot post.. msa tyme a2 x aku post tyme.. cutiii..

Yuhuuu...

ada yang baru diblogg saya.. ahah.. well.. ada designers link list.. well.. lotsa handbags jewels and also heels.. there.. nicee.. *thumbs up... ahahah.. ok.. just click anything.. hee.. well.. u can see dat all of em r fun n hot n also.. great..

B to the O to the R to the E to the D

i know that i had been posting some updates... well.. ok... i was really bored.. well.. i am online ri8 now.. but.. when i chatted with my friends.. in a sudden way.. like.. first they're online.. then they're not.. strangee.. huhh.. ri8?? ahah.. well.. bored ri8 nw.. my bro.. well.. jammin.. my sis.. chores... bros.. playin.. huh.. bored.. i have been duin somethings to decrease my boredom.. likee.. google-ing.. learning how to bake cookies n also cakes from the net.. chaattingg.. and also posting ( ri8 now ) but still.. none can make it go awy frm my head.. *sigh well.. au revoir.. i wanna check the chanel and also the versace website.. au revoir..

Changing is a better way to solve this problem

I am gonna changee... ahah..okokok.. now i am serious.. hee.. okokok.. well.. aku bnr2 kn bu8.. hee.. soo.. wish me luck.. btww.. ku ikut maulud skulah patangg... ahaha.. ok.. tho aku dh dftr fr skulh pagii.. butt.. amir kta.. ya srh aku ikut skulh ptg.. soo.. ok laa.. ahaha.. bkn plg ku mmilihh... ahahaa.. this is fair ok.. lst year ku ikut a2 x ahh.. skulh pgi.. since dis yer is the lastest yer aku dsna n also my 2nd year sna.. eheh.. ikut lh skukh ptg.. ahhaa.. ok.. lets talk about the night shall.. oww. btw... the ugama tst ROCKSSSS!! cuz well.. ahah.. aku mcm ok ja laa.. jwb soalan.. ahaha.. okokok.. pagii.. bnyk cetaa.. n also ugamaa.. aahhaa.. tpi aku crita arh my therapist jaa.. ahaha.. ok.. myb ltr ku cetaa.. pnjang cetanyaa.. penuh sesalan.. ahahhaa... bh apakn.. ehehe... okokok.. well.. aku msa malam.. chat2 ma amir.. aku act. msg c amir srh nline.. pkul.. 7.30... ahaha... then aku nline about 6.45.. ya ada dh waa.. onlinee.. ahaha.. mna kn aku msg ya cmani.. mir.. krg pkul 7.30 nline ahh.. ada something important kn ku ckp kn.. soo.. ya nline laa knn.. our convo apa?? sorryy.. i cannot spit it out.. ahaha.. okok.. then pkul 7.22 (ingat) ahaha... ya fline pslnya kn.. kn.. something.. aha.. awu waa.. kn mandeeee... ahaha.. akhir ya mandee 2.. ahhaa.. then ok laa.. helping mom.. then.. aku ma my sis.. liat gmbr rh google.. psl.. psll.. ahah.. awu waa.. psl high heelss... ahah.. i mean like the designers yg tney tau lh kann.. mcm.. CHARLES AND KEITH, BONIA, CHANEL, DOLCE & GABANNA, GUESS AND ALSO CALVIN KLEIN... well usulnya sikit ahh.. padaahall.. ahaha... banyakk.. mun sudh kmi aga website CHARLES & KEITH sma BONIA.. my mom pun li8.. my sis n I were like soo totally bored.. soo.. kmi ga lh ksana.. we also aga rh website GUESS.. woww.. handbags n heelss nyaa.. powerr.. aha.. lwa laa.. strong color contrast.. and also.. nice a2 la.. shape.. and also unique designss.. ahaha.. lawaaa.. soo cleann n also soo neatt.. hee.. okokok.. mo aga websitenya?? ahah.. owkayy... aku taruh arh aku pnya a2 la ahh link listt.. ahha.. yatawa.. okokok.. soo.. my mom also li8 arh websitee MOTHERCARE kmarin.. cute2 baju babynyaa.. sincee.. ahha.. okokok.. dats all 4 da day.. au revoir...

Todayy... Fridayy.. change?? wat??

Well.. i think long time dh nda postt.. soo.. here they aree.. ahhaa... bh apakn.. okokok.. well.. hri2 msa skarang neyy.. mcm.. diff. dh... well.. everyone changed.. really.. msa ri2.. everyone.. my unc. aunts. cuzs. n also.. my friends.. bnyk yg dh changed.. huh.. this leads to lotsa probs. mcm2 laa.. yg ku face this week.. mcm.. makes me feel.. more maturee.. huh.. well.. ada yg baru couple (ahem..) congrats.. keep on lovin the one.. ahah.. bh jiwang jua... okokok.. back to the topic.. ahah... yg nda care at all jadi caring.. ahhaa.. well.. strange x ahh.. well.. one thing for suree.. I am also gonna change (kirai) ahaha.. msti laa kn.. f urg dpt chnge knapa nda ktani.. ahah.. kes jeles waa.. ahah.. nda plg ca2 tpi kwn2 ku ramai yg dh brubah wa.. i mean sorang jaa.. yath.. paksa th jua neyy.. haha.. pslnya aku msti tunjukkan rh ya.. yg aku buleh jua change.. i have to do this.. really.. i mean it.. huhh.. y do i have to do this.. listen.. to the one i am sayin this.. not the one who hates me off course.. (jan trasa ahh.. mna tau ko baca..) well.. eventho u dun want me to chnge but.. i have to do it.. why?? because its for your own good.. u r the reason dude.. (te-reveal yg ya 2 lelaki) ahah.. bh smpat g becanda 2.. ahah.. bkn plg aku gay ahh.. jan trasa.. ahaha.. ok.. aku neyy bkn plg gay.. okokok... i hve 2 do this dude.. so u wnt be that imbarased of me.. ahah.. okokok.. dats not just the reason kk.. lotsa reasons.. x ahh.. i already talk to my therapist.. (ada x ahh) well.. dia kata bahawa saya patut berubah.. ahhaa.. bh kemelayuan.. ahah.. okokok.. aku need a change kkk.. its for ur own good.. hee... okokok.. ckp psl projek g kk.. my mom helped me walaupun my mom.. jan gtau ahh syapa yg tauu.. ahah.. nda jua ramai x yg tau yg ku trust ja...trmasuk this dude lahh.. ahha.. okokok.. klau kwannya baca gtau aku ahh..kkk.. commerce project tinggal atapnya g kn dsiapkn.. ahah ... f history ya pnya info ja g.. hee.. credits for mom.. who helped me.. hehe.. merci *french accents.. kk.. infonya nw.. ku bu8.. hee... well.. wish me luck with this chnge kk.. hee.. wohoo.. bh apakn.. obar xcitad.. ahahaha.. kkk.. im off.. au revoirr...