chasing pavements

i am now like chasing pavements.. well.. i know that nobody's right about anything.. huh.. well.. today.. all of us... the girls and even me.. maybe are in a fight.. and not to forget azib and nadya.. anyways.. i don't know what happened to them.. azib and nadya.. hmm.. the yelling the idk.. and then the girls and abby... idk what really happened actually.. i was just in the middle of the work when suddenly i felt like i wanna see my sister pull the rope.. this doesn't mean that i don't wanna do the job.. its just that i thought i have time to do it during the afternoon since we have library and since i don't go to ugama school.. you guys know.. since i have more spare time.. so.. i told abby i want to go to see my sister pull the rope.. and also my brother.. then, when i got there, i saw my sister.. she was in the situation like she wanted to faint... soo i paniced.. alittle.. well.. then i get to see my brother pull.. but they lost.. soo.. i went with the girls to go back to the class.. and then when we went inside abby marahh... idk why but she marah maybe mostly to me pasal aku ntah aa.. psl ku l8 kaka ku x.. ntah eyy.. then.. msa aku msuk dlam sana.. si azib and c nadya trus2 mrah2.. so then aku ma girls kesiring la.. takut involve rh fight.. aku pun nda tau knapa.. ntah eyy.. dun wanna think about it.. then... ntah eyy.. azib tumbuk apa kahh.. ntah eyy.. then luka.. than abby ckp apa kh 2.. ktanya 'nahh.. tangan azib bedarah sal kamu' aku nda plg tau 2 aa.. sal apa tngannya ca2.. tpi abby li8 arh mata ku la..cm.. brijap jua 2.. then.. aku cam ntah ahh.. ikut drg qil laa.. pslnya kan msa a2 aku kn ambiil something waa.. brang ku gugur.. nda la jadi sal abby usulnya mcm marah arh aku.. then aku trus la ma drg qilah.. then aku ma drg cm ddk2 laa.. dsana.. di hujung.. then yalaa.. msa kami masuk dalam.. aku cam a2 waa.. cam abby marah aku.. msa a2.. cam.. gila laa.. msa aku li8 a2 msa aku li8 name list 2.. nama ku kana canceled and also kana ucap 'ZUL MAJAL' woww thats a compliment.. aku cam offended la kann.. salnya aku mo jua rehat.. bkannya aku beganas ma drg kn.. aku cam gtau jua awal2 bknnya trus kluar.. pas2 trus2 kana marah.. cam.. gila jua 2.. barking at the wrong tree.. then.. yadayadayda.. i just knew that azib ikut bt ya quit f men2.. well.. OFFENDED HELLO... AKU CAM KANA OFFEND WAAA PSL CAM KANA SINDIR WAAA.. 'KU IKUT NEY TPI KLAU MEN2 AKU QUIT' terasa saya 2 eyy.. gila.. thts sharp.. mcm.. kana sindirr.. AWUUU.. AKU TAU KO SINDIR AKU.. AKU TAUU.. KAMU UCAP AKU OVER SENSITIVE.. huh.. paning ku eyy.. i am now.. drowsy.. i got a fever in me.. like damn.. and btw I AM NOT GONNA LIE ABOUT THS... well.. i am off.. au revoir.. auf wiederseehen..

bored.. as always..

throughout the week.. i can only realize the boredom during school.. where i can't hang out with my friends in ugama school.. and the stress of studying at school.. the only fun i had is when the tug of war started and the time during break at school.. today.. was kind of boring.. no tug of war.. i was really offended about what one of my friends' had said about me.. anyways.. no harm done.. also i went alone to the canteen during break which was quite strange to me.. everyday i got some company to the canteen.. today.. not.. well.. also no harm done.. usually i got accompanied by someone.. but maybe today's weird for me.. during ugama school.. amir hafiz fitri and beb didn't come to school.. well.. i know that they are following the badminton tourement at bsrc.. so.. no company during break.. all i gained during break was just insults and i was bullied by naj.. hazwan.. azri.. qawim.. well.. i know boys aren't suppose to be too sensitive but their jokes are just too much... i am very very.. offended offcourse.. and faded up by this damn freaking thing.. huh.. but during this time.. i was bored.. no amirr.. and no company.. damn.. well.. i felt unappriciated and felt no one has time for me.. well.. thats all.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen.. byee..

Shots

Me my Mom dad and my bro went to the vet to get some shots for our cats.. Bobby did a great job.. He did not even move an inch when he got his shots.. The same thing happens to dinggo.. Molly didn't do very well..she freaked our when she had her shot.. Then we headed home.. When I reached home.. My face was itching like hell.. Well I have to think about that.. My Mom said it's because of the heat.. My dad thinks it's because of the cats' fur.. I think it's because of eating this fish which we call ' ikan yu '.. I ate it for lunch.. Well let's make some calculations shall we.. Okay.. I did my job which Is to clean the cat's cage and stuff.. So it ain't gonna be that.. The heat.. If it's because of the heat.. Why isn't my face itching when I jogged with amir in the morning.. So it ain't gonna be that.. So I think I can't eat ikan yu anymore so.. I think I should really stop eating that.. Which was kinds sad.. Okay today.. I mean during the afternoon.. My uncle came to my house.. To pick up my brother.. My bro's sleeping over at my grandma's house.. He my uncle and my cousin dinni is gonna go to the mall tonight which is now.. Well.. He did offered me to cone with them.. But I didn't followed them because I don't flow with them.. So I watched tv.. Played the laptop.. Played games.. Read mags.. But well nothing covers my boredom.. So well I was thinking in those spare times.. I think I really.. Really.. Need a new watch.. A watch that suits me.. Maybe something very you know.. Classy or maybe the watch that reflects my personality.. Well maybe.. I don't have the guts to tell my parents.. Maybe I will only let it become one of my wildest dreams or maybe a goal which I should achieve.. Maybe.. Idk.. Okay.. I went to a shop nearby.. To buy coke and pepsi and stuff.. Actually my mom wants to drink coke that's why we went to the shop.. Me dad and mom.. In a car.. As always.. Well now im am watching tv.. And maybe this is enough.. So bye.. Au revoir.. Auf wiedesehen..

sunny

an enjoyable day it was.. boy i hadn't had fun like this since i was in primary school.. gosh.. guys.. you know what? today is the day of our school's JOGATHON... yeah... i love the sound of it jogathon.. jo..ga..ton.. ahah.. okay.. at school.. i went to the class well.. everyone was hyper.. yeah.. well.. i took my number (659) and then i went to abby.. talked to her.. and then.. i went outside.. you know.. essembly.. there me mizan syahin and ridzuan.. goofed around.. well.. that sounds lame.. okay.. fine.. there was an aerobic thing infront of us.. but we can't see what the heck is going on.. so.. we just standed there and well.. just.. chatted.. then.. we went for the jog.. the greens goes first.. unfortunately.. i am in the reds so... we went next.. i jogged by my own self.. i was alone.. i was listening to music.. i well.. just jogged.. it was fun.. then.. i saw amir.. at the umm.. srma.. yeaa.. so.. i ran towards him.. he was wearing a green shirt inside the pe shirt with long sleeves.. soo.. well... we raced.. ahaha.. how childish.. ahah.. then we stopped and chatted until we reached school.. half way there.. mustaqim.. well maybe mustakim?? he was gone.. but me and amir kept on chatting.. and chatting and then we reached the school.. i let him.. rann.. i mean jog to the school.. he reached first.. and me.. well.. i just walked there.. did i mention i bumped with nadz?? my bro's friend?? well.. that.. i don't wanna tell.. okay. then.. idk what happened.. in the school.. i chatted with amir.. listened to music.. talked to mizan ridzuan bazli syahin.. and hafiz.. and then.. i went home.. and then took my shower.. and here i am.. well.. fun.. thats all i could say for today.. well.. i am off.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen...

cooperation

a lot to learn todayy.. well.. one tip for today.. never bug your friend.. okay?? see.. todayy.. was a great day for me.. and also.. p.e. was putted on the first period of the day.. soo.. it was great.. well.. eventhough i was called niger by mr. chin.. but who cares? okay... library.. fine.. maths.. eekk.. okay laa.. ugama devine.. fun isn't it? well.. ofcourse.. ugama was great.. i enjoyed my time with amir.. and also.. cikgu zalefah didn't came to class because she has to attend a course at bandar.. soo no can do.. okay.. i had fun today.. me my mom my bro n sis.. made cornflakes just noww.. yumm.. okayy.. i am off.. gtg.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen..

appreciation

i realized that appreciation is very important... well.. for the first time.. i felt unappreciated.. well at school.. well.. i was very.. well.. idk.. words can't describe it though.. well.. okay.. i hate it at school..where i couldn't even consentrate.. in my studies.. duh.. okay.. i like it the way that i am very serious but well.. warm.. or cordial perhaps.. but now.. i mean today.. i acted like a gay from a gay pub.. i hate that.. well.. i am now.. confessing to my ownself.. well.. eventhough i was like.. well.. my friends like it that way.. but.. well.. i don't know.. anyways.. today amir didn't came to school.. so.. i didn't talk to him.. but he did came to ugama school and well.. he explained.. and i sucked his day.. and also my own day.. well.. i don't know.. okay i am stressed.. okay.. byee.. this is all.. byee.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen..

welcome

i would like to say welcome to a new student which is jong.. ahah.. jk.. aishwarya.. ahaha jkjk.. well..welcome to..*drumroll... Mustofa'.. i think? '-'? ahaha.. well.. he's from kenya.. and he's an african... well.. welcome.. i got the infos from my dude.. amir.. you are?? ahah.. okay.. that all.. i could.. say..

hyperpathetic

yeaterday... okay.. it was an enjoyable day... lots of things done yesterday.. i woke up at 8.. well.. its kinda late.. i think.. and then.. i had my breakfast.. then.. i took my shower.. then i went online.. then.. i watched tv.. and then.. i surfed the net.. and maybe that's the ordinary things i've done yesterday.. well.. the fun-nest thing done yesterday is.. i made some butter-sugar toast.. for our family's tea time.. my family enjoys it.. a lot.. but unfortunately.. dad wasn't there to taste them.. because he's going offshore.. well.. that's a shame.. okay... dad i'll make you some when you get home.. okay?? fine.. okay.. i also did made some chocolate dipped cornflakes.. my family loved it.. even so.. my friends loved it.. thank you to corine, emelia b. and jong to taste my cornflakes and also thank you to my family.. of always supporting me.. and thank you to my CHEERISH.. CUTE.. EXTRAORDINARY, DAZZLING, EXCELENT, SWELL, SINCERE, AUTHENIC, BIOLOGICAL, SMART, SPORTING, FIT, TRUTHFUL, CARING MOTHER.. MAMAMIA.. YOU GOT MAGIC HANDS!!! ahaha.. yeaa... i always wanted to do that.. hehee... thanks mom.. and we had a great son to mama talk at the kitchen while working the cornflakes.. and thanks to my brother zull and my sister ajirah to put then in teeny wahinie cups... thanks a lot.. and also.. thanks to my brother ben and boy... whom apparently helped me and my other family members to FINISH THE CORNFLAKES.. without doing anything.. anyways.. you guys are still small.. hehe.. okay.. i made them yesterday right?? well.. it was finished... TODAY!! so me and my mom had to make more new ones.. well.. this thrills me.. hehe.. well.. thats enough lets talk about today shall we.. okay... i had mood swings today.. i was kind of.. i don't know.. maybe stressed? okay.. i had a bad mood at school.. but i covered it so my friends won't say "eyy zul.. ko neyy kenapa ko bad mood?? ko jealous pasal ******** kahh??" that one.. well.. is like soo expired because i don't like it.. i hate it.. first of all i am not jealous.. okay.. fine.. see.. i was very-very in a bad mood.. because all my friends were like unsincere in hanging out with me.. i can feel soo annoyed by that.. well.. except my famiily and the girls from iRock and my dude.. well.. they cheered me up.. hehe thanks guys.. okay.. well.. enough thankings.. i have to go beddy beddy.. and i am sleepy sleepy.. gotta go to beddy beddy.. okay.. bye.. see you guys next time ... au revoir.. auf wiedersehen...

birthday ratio syahin:avinash

awkward.. during the morning though.. i doubt about something i don't like comes to this moment.. i am very curious nowdays about believing people.. who shall i believe and who i shall not.. i also did took some mood swings.. which someone doesn't recognize.. and i don't really thing this crap called "life" is good enough.. well.. sometimes though.. okay lets go back to my story.. this morning.. mr. george changed usama's place.. well.. to hafiz's place.. his reason.. he can't see the board.. what an unsensible answer.. he's wearing specs and he's sitting almost in the front.. he said he can't see the board.. oww... dammit!! this dude makes my day even worster.. you damn guy.. are you blind or what?? okay.. back to my story.. and then... all the mood swings was gone like a dust.. when.. we learnt maths which was my now-onwards favorite subject.. well.. i love doing equations and stuff.. soo.. yeahh.. i like math.. then okay.. i went to ugama school.. and this makes me mad.. well.. unoccasionally.. today.. all my friends was like not sincere on talking to me.. like they are like.. hiding something in their damn faces.. and hearts.. well.. i ignored them.. well.. i was boiling inside and was curious but i was looking very calm in the outside.. well.. so it won't look obvious.. soo.. i then.. took a break of all this shit.. and went straight home.. well.. i was like thanking God to just like... idk.. my mom was there early.. so i was very greatful to see mom.. because i know from all this shit.. friends being unsincere.. my mom and family will be the only one who would make my face smile again.. well.. did i said best friend?? oww noo.. well.. that is because he was also being unsincere to me.. i can sense it.. okay.. then in the car.. well.. i chatted with my mom.. and i told her about all of this.. thank God my mom was a very supportive woman.. soo.. she said that i just have ignore people sometimes.. i don't really have to talk to people all the time.. soo.. yeap.. her advices were like magic.. well.. she's great.. momma's great.. then my brother comes and then well.. we went straight home.. without looking to my friends faces.. and when we got home.. i saw a fimiliar slipper.. a black one with patterns on it.. during this time.. i was very full of joy.. not bad-mooded.. so when i came inside.. and putted my shoes in the rack.. i saw.. my sisterr.. both of them.. SIS JIRAH & SIS SHURAA... ahaha.. well.. i was very surprised.. soo i chattted wif them.. and somehow worked on sis shura's project.. then.. we had dinner together.. thenn.. we chatted.. then.. we sented her home.. now.. i am playin the laptop.. and guess what?? all of my friends weren't texting me or replying my textes.. how sweet!!(nott!) well.. i acts this as an insult.. well.. except my sisters cuz i know they are busy.. heyy birthday ratio.. i forgot.. okayy.. here's the equation


17:18
vinash:syahin

get it?? i am sure u doo.. well avinashs bday was on 17/4 which was YESTERDAY.. and syahin's was today.. so happy birthday guys.. may u get anything you want and fullfil your dreams and achieve ur goals.. kk.. work hardd.. kk..


im off.. gtg.. bye.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen...

unnoticeable

estatic.. indeed very.. today was quite cold because the first thing i realized this morning was it was raining.. like forks.. okay i have a wild imagination and may imaginate the thing i shouldn't well.. wtheck.. don't bother it much..okay this morning was raining so no p.e. we were just hangin around in our class... partying.. hehe.. jk.. well.. then geo.. well.. somebody crashed our sincere mood.. i won't tell.. and then history.. me n hafiz sang the national anthem of japan.. well.. nice right.. hehe.. well.. hafiz's voice.. nicee.. break.. walked with amir.. then.. hangin out wif friends..then tadaa.. greatt.. well. ugama.. greatt.. im looking forward for tomorow.. hhee.. okay.. byee.. gtg.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen..

crazy to be called as a day

i can't believe that our school lost in the speech competition.. i can't believe we had test today.. i can't believe that i caught a cold today.. i can't believe that i got to know one of my good friends are a traitor.. (whatever).. i can't believe that i caught a fever.. i can't believe that we have practical today.. see see.. my day was worst + great for today.. but mostly.. great.... ok.. the 1st thing i realized this morning is i woke up late and i caught A FEVER... which if you noticed i caps locked it so u would know its TERRIBLE for me.. see see.. thenn.. today also.. we had 3 tests.. 1. science.. 2. commerce..3. tauhid.. okayy thats enough.. today during the ugama school.. there is a SPOTCHECK... well.. 3 mobile phones were confiscated.. iman's husaini's and afham's phonee.. well.. too sad.. i heard afham's parent's grounded his phone for 2 DAMN YEARS!! that is soo sad.. sorry to hear that.. well.. the rest.. i don't know.. well.. i should be going now.. well.. i officially am now announcing to the public that i have a yahoo account.. ahah well.. im off.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen..

i moved

no posts for a week.. well thats simple.. i am busy.. okay.. i moved my seat in the class.. well.. thats simple.. everything is simple right? well.. i think soo.. i thinkk.. today.. we had p.e. unfortunatelty.. six of us didn't attend to school.. nadya, fitri, shwetta, jd, avinash and usama.. this is because.. they are going to yayasan school.. to see a competition.. a speech competiton.. nadya and shwetta are actually one of the competators.. the others.. just supporters.. at least there's someone to support you and watch you present and witness ever single thing right? while they were out we were exersicing.. mainly in the hot sun.. off-course.. i am with my lab partner.. hafiz.. he always keeps me company.. to tell the truth.. i was very quiet for the day.. eventhough i talked a little.. but.. i am going to improve more.. okay.. after p.e. geo. which was an enjoyable hour with mrs. tan... one of her class was like equal to spending a half of an hour at the spa.. well.. this doesn't mean we get free massage and treatment.. no.. no way.. its just that.. she's cool.. that's all i could say.. next was mr. suresh's class.. history.. interesting subject.. i liked it.. about the japanese stuff.. well.. it's enjoyable if you get to hear the story.. he's a talented story teller.. then break.. which was like our time of freedom.. to eat and drink and meet our friends.. i went to the canteen.. with amir.. talked about class and stuffs.. then we seperated while we were at the canteen.. then we met again while we were not at the canteen.. get it? nevermind.. i am sure you guys won't mind about this simple things.. i had a great break today at school.. it is recently the best break of the week.. i hanged out with iRock.. the 2b girls.. hafiz.. that's quite enough for me.. and quite equal.. then after the ring bells.. maths.. there comes mr. george.. with books in his arm.. held tight with his fingers.. and then as he comes in the class.. hafiz and i begged him so i could change places.. it worked.. so.. i had maths with hafiz.. and he explained to me every thing that i wouldn't understand from mr. george's teachings.. which was quite or very helpful.. hey wait! after recess is library. okay.. during library.. mrs. tan took over mr. ramesh's class since he is in bandar.. then when i went inside the library.. mislea was there.. she's kind.. okay.. then.. i went to my classroom.. and then read my book.. and then maths.. then ugama.. then ugama school.. which was quite interesting.. thats all for today.. the peoples who brightened my day was :

1. amir
2.hafiz
3.chris
4.iRock
5.2b girls
6. mrs. tan
7.mis lea
8. cikgu zalefah

thats all for today.. bye... au revoir..

a day to remember..

the whole day.. i suffered.. suffered from the eyes of the hatrid on me.. i see peoples who cared about me.. and most of all i can see people that are really.. wanting to accompany me.. im my silence... i can see.. lots of them who cared about me.. though today.. one of my friend didn't even come to school.. but its okay.. as long as i could have a walk with my friends.. that seems to be fine with me.. today also.. my friends said that i am jealous of azib.. thats why i change.. well.. you guys are actually wrong.. wrong about everything.. everyone.. well.. i ain't gonna fall for anything perhaps.. maybe i should have been like this.. always hated by peoples.. maybe i am the guy who's fate tell that he didn't deserve friends.. maybe i am not the one who should really have anyone in my mind rather than my family.. well.. i thought so.. at least well.. at least i have my family that would be very great.. maybe.. well.. i don't really know if anyone would believe me or not.. this is the story of me in my school.. now lets talk about me in ugama.. well.. today.. all my friends were telling me that azib was talking about mein his blog.. saying some bad things about me.. its not just for a second.. its for the whole day.. this guy sure would get an academy award for best story ever told.. well.. lets get to the story.. i ignored the crap.. i also did had an adventure with nadyaa and fitrii.. okay.. it was fun+scary.. ahaa.. as if i would fall for that nadya... ahah.. owkayy.. thenn thats all i could sayy.. and the crap wasn't true.. one of my friends searched for me.. credits to qilahh... okayy.. i am off.. au revoir..

finally

i don't really know if its suppose to be like this.. but finally.. i found out each and everyone of my friends' attitude... and i found out lots of changes are made right after the first term holiday ended.. i think maybe lots of people became much mature then what they were before.. and some.. maybe only a few changed oppositely.. well.. there are also some who's very unsupportive than before.. but what the heck.. at least only some changed to the bad side and lots to the good side, right? i think so.. maybe.. perhaps all of the people who changed from bad to good thought that being good is lame of whatever.. i think i like the new quiet and confidential me.. its more on to being independent and being who i am.. okay.. now i am getting to talk about the change.. okay.. *siren.. change the damn topic.. yesterday.. sorry for not updating my damn blog.. busy lately.. well.. since my grandma and my uncle and aunt is here visiting us.. and sincee AUNTIE SRI is here.. well.. i couldn't do anything but just 'curhat' ed with her.. well.. its nothing.. its not that suspicious..ots just telling or discussing something in only one topic and subject.. what we talked about is a secret.. then there's my grandma.. well as you can see.. i can't even go online during that time.. well.. their visit ended at 9.. or maybe 8.. yeaaa.. something like that... so then me my bro zull and my dad was watching the tv3 show.. Majalah 3.. they were making a documentary in london and stuff.. so we were watching it.. and then they showed a label of a street which was stuck on to a building.. sort of a carving on a brickk.. a big one.. which maybe the name of that street.. guess what the name iss? GAY STREET.. we laughed.. even my dad.. ahaha.. well.. thats all i could say.. okay.. gotta go.. bye... au revoir..

skinhuntting..

skin hunting is what i did todayy.. ahah.. well.. okayy... i did lose all the designer linkss but ill try to recal every single websitee..(: okay.. u will see such a nice layout i have here.. its US$1.00.. ahaha jkjk.. kidding.. owkayy.. i got it.. and at first i didn;t realize that it has green in it.. well.. then i knw.. soo i was very2 estatic bout it.. hehe.. horay.. today lots of probs come.. at least mine is settled.. hehee.. thank gawd.. hehe.. okay im off noww.. au revoir..

great.. *sighh

great.. yesterday morning... someone stomped on my bagg.. well.. that reekss.. the worst part is there was left a shoe print on the back of my backpackk.. i guess this 'dood' (who ever u are.. better show up) got a dusty shoe on its freakin foot.. mann.. i just have to wash it down myself thenn.. well.. thats all for noww.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen...

omfg!! II edition

i caught up one of my friends who seemed to spend $160 bucks.. wow.. how richh.. wtf mann.. well.. jealosyy?? not muchh..
hehe..

omfg!!

i just viewed my friend's blogg just now.. and he has great wardrobe.. oww mann.. im tacky here.. shitt.. mann.. shittt.. damnn..

Words.. more than five words..

Seems like this anger or any change would make something better nor worst.. the changed did give some possitive reaction towards my friends and even teachers which was kind of shocking to me.. it was very fun today because i could just walk around the school areas and building with no one with me.. i am only accompanied with my own shadows which followed shallowly.. i was feeling very fine and comfortable about getting my own private time with myself to charge my own self confidence and self asteem back again as they fell appart like a jigsaw puzzle wrecked with only just one change.. i had never felt this bizzare in my own body and felt quite over-joyyed about this.. at last, mu goal of being alone to catch some breath and exhale some negative thinking from my brain which comes from unenjoyable teachers was finally accomplished.. as school endded.. i nervously went to chung ching school where my grandma picked me and my brother and sister so that we could go home.. as we were on our way.. i gazzed onto every page that i could read in my twillight book.. i was quickly energized once the first page was opened which means another adventure will start and another love casanova would start soon.. i read as many pages as i could during that time.. as soon as the car stops.. i realized that we were at home.. at last.. well.. i quickly putted my twillight book inside my recyclig bag.. owkay that was too novelishh.. okay.. now.. today during the afternoon.. we read the Yassin.. well.. also then we were told by our teacher about khatam Al-Quran.. well.. i was very nervous and very scared... because.. i had just reaced juz 10.. well.. thats slow work right.. soo now i am going to finish the Al-Quran this month.. and also.. i would even pray everyday just to get Allah's secureness.. and thenn during break.. me.. as usual.. went to amir's class.. well.. to.. umm.. to pick him up.. its not like a date or somehing.. if u guys didn't realize that i am not GAY! well.. its actually like a walk.. maybe a friends walk.. which is the part we hang out.. u knw.. how buddies hang out and stuff.. thenn.. well.. we went upstairss.. and there amir did this freakishly strange choreography which he kinda told me that it was a modern and popular dance nowadays.. soo.. i just said 'oww' just to make him sure i liked to see it full of interest.. well.. then after a few minutes.. mizan made a music beat which was like a umm.. i don't know.. trance or techno.. something like that.. and then amir moved his hands and stuffs.. and when i see a little spect of this dance move... i said to myself 'wtf is this dude doing' well.. i know that everyone likes shuffle.. and all things related to it.. but i kinda don't like it.. soo i told him the truth.. FINALLY... it took me guts to tell himm.. okk.. thenn finishh for the dayy... ahaha.. okay something weird happened then where azib said 'bye' to amir when he's finish lacing his shoe laces on.. thenn.. he said something strange.. sort of like..'pembucur rahsia' i acted as i don't know anything he said to amir.. but actually.. through his cold eyes.. i could read that he's very stressed maybe with his lifestyle.. i don't know about him.. its a secret.. okk.. i am off.. Auf Wiedersehen.. Au Revoir..

A great dayy... maybee.. idtss...

i can't imagine how my life would be if i will stay like before i was changed.. before it was the holidays.. the way my hands go softly like a balerina's hand waving towards each step of her choreography.. I made a sudden somehow.. by simply acting as nothing did happen.. i sort of acted like there was no one to care about me in school.. no one to recognize my face.. which is now cured from the pimples i've gotten from the guy i were before i changed.. i really appriciated all my friends' suggestion to change myself to the old me again.. the old me who is recently always soft talking.. loud voicee... over-acting (thiss.. i am not sure but some said soo..) confident.. always proud ( thiss.. alsoo..) and always being very.. veryy.. sensitive.. now, i am really energized always being who i wanted to be.. and always being whom i should really be.. i was always hoping to get a very delightful day on the next day as the sun risses and wakens up all the clouds around the sky which danced as the day was going through.. my life was never like this.. before i've changed.. i always can't wait for school to see all the childrens, the nurserys and the teens to start their day at school which was quite enjoyable to me to see all of them talking with each others' friends and talking about the latest news flash they've just knew.. some were just nagging to his other friend.. saying that he does'nt even get to get his deep sleep.. i guess if there is a person saying this.. he or she must know that one day.. we will sleep and rest forever.. i entered the classroom this morning carrying my three best friends as the daylight shines at my dry face.. my bagpack, my green metal bottle and my recycling bag which i just used a couple of days.. as i went inside.. the class was filled with no one except mizan, joshua and emelia b. .. they are the early comers which i had realized everytime i went inside the class everyday.. i had just got a great time listening to mizan's chitchattering voice as he spoke to joshua about something even a maniac would'nt even be able to hear.. as i opened my twillight notebook.. everything was silent as i concentrated on the words printed on every page of the delicant novel... today i had a great time.. maybe.. i don't think this word will satisfy me.. infact.. my life would just be just even more delivant of everyone would just stop saying to me i am not happy.. i would say i am loving the attitude and will permenantize it for the futuree..