a day to remember..

the whole day.. i suffered.. suffered from the eyes of the hatrid on me.. i see peoples who cared about me.. and most of all i can see people that are really.. wanting to accompany me.. im my silence... i can see.. lots of them who cared about me.. though today.. one of my friend didn't even come to school.. but its okay.. as long as i could have a walk with my friends.. that seems to be fine with me.. today also.. my friends said that i am jealous of azib.. thats why i change.. well.. you guys are actually wrong.. wrong about everything.. everyone.. well.. i ain't gonna fall for anything perhaps.. maybe i should have been like this.. always hated by peoples.. maybe i am the guy who's fate tell that he didn't deserve friends.. maybe i am not the one who should really have anyone in my mind rather than my family.. well.. i thought so.. at least well.. at least i have my family that would be very great.. maybe.. well.. i don't really know if anyone would believe me or not.. this is the story of me in my school.. now lets talk about me in ugama.. well.. today.. all my friends were telling me that azib was talking about mein his blog.. saying some bad things about me.. its not just for a second.. its for the whole day.. this guy sure would get an academy award for best story ever told.. well.. lets get to the story.. i ignored the crap.. i also did had an adventure with nadyaa and fitrii.. okay.. it was fun+scary.. ahaa.. as if i would fall for that nadya... ahah.. owkayy.. thenn thats all i could sayy.. and the crap wasn't true.. one of my friends searched for me.. credits to qilahh... okayy.. i am off.. au revoir..

finally

i don't really know if its suppose to be like this.. but finally.. i found out each and everyone of my friends' attitude... and i found out lots of changes are made right after the first term holiday ended.. i think maybe lots of people became much mature then what they were before.. and some.. maybe only a few changed oppositely.. well.. there are also some who's very unsupportive than before.. but what the heck.. at least only some changed to the bad side and lots to the good side, right? i think so.. maybe.. perhaps all of the people who changed from bad to good thought that being good is lame of whatever.. i think i like the new quiet and confidential me.. its more on to being independent and being who i am.. okay.. now i am getting to talk about the change.. okay.. *siren.. change the damn topic.. yesterday.. sorry for not updating my damn blog.. busy lately.. well.. since my grandma and my uncle and aunt is here visiting us.. and sincee AUNTIE SRI is here.. well.. i couldn't do anything but just 'curhat' ed with her.. well.. its nothing.. its not that suspicious..ots just telling or discussing something in only one topic and subject.. what we talked about is a secret.. then there's my grandma.. well as you can see.. i can't even go online during that time.. well.. their visit ended at 9.. or maybe 8.. yeaaa.. something like that... so then me my bro zull and my dad was watching the tv3 show.. Majalah 3.. they were making a documentary in london and stuff.. so we were watching it.. and then they showed a label of a street which was stuck on to a building.. sort of a carving on a brickk.. a big one.. which maybe the name of that street.. guess what the name iss? GAY STREET.. we laughed.. even my dad.. ahaha.. well.. thats all i could say.. okay.. gotta go.. bye... au revoir..

skinhuntting..

skin hunting is what i did todayy.. ahah.. well.. okayy... i did lose all the designer linkss but ill try to recal every single websitee..(: okay.. u will see such a nice layout i have here.. its US$1.00.. ahaha jkjk.. kidding.. owkayy.. i got it.. and at first i didn;t realize that it has green in it.. well.. then i knw.. soo i was very2 estatic bout it.. hehe.. horay.. today lots of probs come.. at least mine is settled.. hehee.. thank gawd.. hehe.. okay im off noww.. au revoir..

great.. *sighh

great.. yesterday morning... someone stomped on my bagg.. well.. that reekss.. the worst part is there was left a shoe print on the back of my backpackk.. i guess this 'dood' (who ever u are.. better show up) got a dusty shoe on its freakin foot.. mann.. i just have to wash it down myself thenn.. well.. thats all for noww.. au revoir.. auf wiedersehen...

omfg!! II edition

i caught up one of my friends who seemed to spend $160 bucks.. wow.. how richh.. wtf mann.. well.. jealosyy?? not muchh..
hehe..

omfg!!

i just viewed my friend's blogg just now.. and he has great wardrobe.. oww mann.. im tacky here.. shitt.. mann.. shittt.. damnn..

Words.. more than five words..

Seems like this anger or any change would make something better nor worst.. the changed did give some possitive reaction towards my friends and even teachers which was kind of shocking to me.. it was very fun today because i could just walk around the school areas and building with no one with me.. i am only accompanied with my own shadows which followed shallowly.. i was feeling very fine and comfortable about getting my own private time with myself to charge my own self confidence and self asteem back again as they fell appart like a jigsaw puzzle wrecked with only just one change.. i had never felt this bizzare in my own body and felt quite over-joyyed about this.. at last, mu goal of being alone to catch some breath and exhale some negative thinking from my brain which comes from unenjoyable teachers was finally accomplished.. as school endded.. i nervously went to chung ching school where my grandma picked me and my brother and sister so that we could go home.. as we were on our way.. i gazzed onto every page that i could read in my twillight book.. i was quickly energized once the first page was opened which means another adventure will start and another love casanova would start soon.. i read as many pages as i could during that time.. as soon as the car stops.. i realized that we were at home.. at last.. well.. i quickly putted my twillight book inside my recyclig bag.. owkay that was too novelishh.. okay.. now.. today during the afternoon.. we read the Yassin.. well.. also then we were told by our teacher about khatam Al-Quran.. well.. i was very nervous and very scared... because.. i had just reaced juz 10.. well.. thats slow work right.. soo now i am going to finish the Al-Quran this month.. and also.. i would even pray everyday just to get Allah's secureness.. and thenn during break.. me.. as usual.. went to amir's class.. well.. to.. umm.. to pick him up.. its not like a date or somehing.. if u guys didn't realize that i am not GAY! well.. its actually like a walk.. maybe a friends walk.. which is the part we hang out.. u knw.. how buddies hang out and stuff.. thenn.. well.. we went upstairss.. and there amir did this freakishly strange choreography which he kinda told me that it was a modern and popular dance nowadays.. soo.. i just said 'oww' just to make him sure i liked to see it full of interest.. well.. then after a few minutes.. mizan made a music beat which was like a umm.. i don't know.. trance or techno.. something like that.. and then amir moved his hands and stuffs.. and when i see a little spect of this dance move... i said to myself 'wtf is this dude doing' well.. i know that everyone likes shuffle.. and all things related to it.. but i kinda don't like it.. soo i told him the truth.. FINALLY... it took me guts to tell himm.. okk.. thenn finishh for the dayy... ahaha.. okay something weird happened then where azib said 'bye' to amir when he's finish lacing his shoe laces on.. thenn.. he said something strange.. sort of like..'pembucur rahsia' i acted as i don't know anything he said to amir.. but actually.. through his cold eyes.. i could read that he's very stressed maybe with his lifestyle.. i don't know about him.. its a secret.. okk.. i am off.. Auf Wiedersehen.. Au Revoir..