its the holi-holidays!

F.R.E.E.D.O.M.

freedom. 7 letters. independent, strong, priceless. freedom.

what a bad weather we're having now. quite a scene outside my house. the rain drizzled continuously. the flash of lighting and the thud of the thunder completed the painting of this scenery. 

but still, it doesnt affect any degree of freedom i have now that the exams are done.

i officially am on holiday last week. im not sure when but the point is, it started last week. staying and resting at home is fun and relaxing, at times.

its been a while since i havent seen my friends. probably about a week  or so. looking forward to meet them soon if we get the chance.

since my holiday has just started, it had been fun so far. i am looking forward for some more fun and laughs ahead of me as i take a journey upon my holiday days.

the pain the money, the luxury, the rich had brought

as we all know, money is such a powerful word and is a powerful object. everybody also knows that money brings luxury and luxury brings joy. thats the main reason why people work for money, why people sacrifice for money and why people would kill for money. it brings happiness. 

for some, it is the way of getting money that brings difficulty to the matter while some find it easy for it is presented to them on a silver platter. since then, the idealism where money indicates social rankings of people emerge which therefore conclude with putting people into groups; the rich, the moderate, the poor.

i came up with a theory days ago which emphasizes the ugly truth of our life.

when the rich buys luxury, the moderate watched them from below while the poor cries in tears of despair thinking how lucky the rich are.

for me, further explanation of that theory isnt needed for it is simple, it is short and it is the truth.

but life is like a cycle. who knows, maybe one day people of the moderate and poor would be in the same position as the rich, but everything happens for a reason.

but it doesnt matter which level you come from. as long as you are happy, healthy and know your roots, then nothing will do you wrong. thats why it is easier for you to except who you are and be good to others then to try and be like everybody else. 

keep an eye on 'em. they're filthy rich!

in a clan, there will always be this person who would make you feel like you dont belong. these people would do anything, ANYTHING just to make you feel that way. they would say bad things about you infront of you or even painful, behind your back. they would might not particularly hate you but, point out your mistakes. they are what i called the 'judges' in my previous post.

some of you might think, 'what point is he trying to make here?' or even 'why is he posting this?'. well, clearly:

1) I AM A VICTIM

2) ITS MY BLOG

its very clear now that i have been surrounded by negative vibes that clearly messes up my system to study at school. whether they're inside OR outside my school, the effects of this matter still is the same- they go hand in hand.

some people who you call friends today, might hate you or say bad things about you or even worst, say things behind your back tomorrow. so brace your selves humans and prepare for tomorrow, learn to let go & most importantly, forgive but NEVER forget. 

so let the judges 'deliberate'.

raya for this year is about to end and obviously, everyone has had their shares of apologies. but mine is different, in a way. what shares did i get for raya? apologies & betrayal. yes. betrayal. the eight lettered word that haunts everyone out there.

who doesnt fear of getting betrayed? surely everyone agrees that being fearless about getting betrayed is such an impossible task to accomplish. ironically, its something that people of our surroundings or ourselves feel everyday but, when it happens to you, it feels like its your first time feeling the pain and despair.

but, a little plate of betrayal isnt served directly to your dinner table without the company of another side dish. and that my fellow friends, is judgement. that feeling when you feel like every single moment, every single mistake that you did is being judged heavily by the people who do so.

how could you live with this kind of environment? how could you live life having your mistakes & actions judged unmercifully?

for those of you who says that i am posting this post just so that i could get some attention then, yes. maybe i am. and for those of you who doesnt, then thank you and truthfully, no. i am not. it is up to you to believe which one is a lie and which one is the truth that lies beneath the sea of lies.

thank you for reading anyways, and for those of you who might be offended by this post. why so? post a comment on my shoutbox, or even tweet me, i dont know. selamat hari raya aidilfitri maaf zahir batin :)

back in town

after about 6 months without updates, im back! what a relief. i dont know why but suddenly, the urge to blog about some stuffs hit me. anyways, if youre here to like, read it sincerely- thank you. but if youre here just to make fun of me in any ways- close the tab or go to somewhere else where the admin doesnt give a crap. -- you mad? stay mad!

okay, so as a muslim, we're now having our 13th day of fasting. i would like to wish everyone a pleasant fasting month. and yeah, thats all that i will say on that.

moved to smpap for like 6 months ago?, i think. about approximately 6 months or more than that. i cant recall. anyways, it was fun here and made some new friends, as usual. there were some ups and downs but well, thats life. its like a roller-coaster that you just gotta ride.

to my st margaret's friends out there, i wish you guys the best of luck to succeed with excellence and to take the chance to learn things and lessons that i did or did not get to learn. i miss you guys so much.

anyhow, that all from me. will update at a later time when i find a certain time to do so.