dont kill me

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HELLO!

well my days had gone pretty well nowadays. with friends helping me and my family supporting me. to tell you guys the truth, its not that bad after all. i am one of those people who are scared of changes. i fear that it might ruin everything and change it into something bad. well, the changes in my life now makes me realize that not all changes lead to bad things. moving on is one of them.

with happy and inspirational music, everything goes pretty well and the idea of moving on becomes more solid as your trust and belief that you can do it becomes more solid too. at first i thought its just a myth to make someone feel better. but i tried it and yes, it has earned my confirmation that it works.

and now i would say that i truely know who my real friends are now as it is very obvious on who had been there supporting me and helping me and the ones who doesnt. now i can know who to lean on and who to care for. and the person reading this should feel that theyre one of them if they feel like they are.

p/s: you dont need love to make you feel better because thats what your friends do, to make you feel better about yourself

it will get better through whatever

last week had been a busy and stressful week. nothing really was fine. i had friendship problems. this impacts my whole performance in school was affected by it. i failed every additional mathematics tests and i almost fail the rest. my performance in school was hung by a thread and so does my friendship.

not only my friendship with my friend and my performance in school, but my essay competition was also affected. i am not confident if i would win and if i do win, itll be a miracle because well, i was quite pressured with whatever happened on that day and the day before it. in simple words i was seeking for someone to talk to and this would be my girlfriends and my family. well, theyre the only one i had at that time. they were the only one i could trust and theyre the only one that i could rely on.

yesterday which was sunday, i went to my grandparents house in tutong. their home is my rehab and the place where i could relax and lie my head down at my grandma's thighs while she plays with my hair. hahaha well, if there is a place where i could think it over and put myself back together from the pieces that ive broken to, my grands' place would be the place.

today is a new day and a new chapter in my life. i know that ive been running through problems and all but now, i could see my friend happy and all. that is enough. even way enough. more better then getting him/her to speak to me back. today, everyone seems to be happy and i want to maintain this settings. now all i could do is repair my friendship with the people that ive been not talking to.

overall i thank my family and friends for helping me make this day become a reality and proves to me that these kind of days would never be a dream to me anymore because it happened to myself today.

a great greet of appreciation to:

my family; my sisters, ajirah and assyura. my aunt, marlina. my grandma and my brothers. i love you guys as my words of love would never be enough to prove my love to you guys.

my friends; my girls, deejah aiman rabi qilah abby eme. fiqah, nad, nisah and the other ladies. and my guy friends, waly and mizan and the other dudes. i love you guys lots and i really mean this

and i would really really really thank my mom for giving me love, courage, support, care and confidence. thanks for telling me that days like of what ive dreamt of would only be happening in my dreams would happen in reality. and making me believe that you can be happy even when youre alone. thanks mommy. i love you and ill always be your jack and will always be like this forever. for you mommy.

thanks for these inspirational, caring, supporting and encouraging peoples, i was able to start a new chapter in my life.

friendship may kill but it will never die

im currently chatting with one of my closest friends,

sawi aka nasurah aka AIMANN!

haha well let the photos speak connect with you telepathically. haha sounds very sci-fi-ish but let it be. because of sci-fi starwars is a hit movie soo.. haha okay im gonna start shutting up now.

zul aka lemiding?.. LOVE IT! (y) hahaha

aiman nazurah
deejah
zulhilme (:

aiman made this btw. its soo pretty! haha

and she didnt forget to draw for deejavou too! how generous *ngampu. hahaha

crooked teeth~ GO AIMAN! haha juburr

and finally, friends for life :B

thanks for reading

box your ass off

okay obviously from the tittle of this post, its about BOXING! haha its not actually about boxing though. its about a movie about boxing.

joe frazier

muhammad ali

thriller in manila
the movies about a documentary about the worlds most controversial boxing fight between both, most sensational boxers during that time, joe frazier and muhammad ali. well i might not know joe frazier before ive watched this movie on cinemax but i surely know muhammad ali. ive heard lots and lots of stories about him. great ones actually.

this movies quite interesting and if i wish i wouldve been there watching this match but unfortunately, my parents were just 12 or so and thus, i wasnt born YET! haha but well atleast i can watch it now! on youtube lagi. haha jk people. ive never even have this interest in boxing. but i am interested in these fellow boxers' matches.

i guess this is just it friends. ill end this post right here. thanks for reading anyways

caught in the cage of fear

its been a very very very very long time since this blog hadnt been updated. you could say that it was abandoned for a week or two but well its updated now!

SCHOOLLL!!! the day that ive been waiting for. haha well i was hoping to see my friends because i miss them a lot! so guys i miss you. haha skali adakan urg trasa. hahahahaha becaliii.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL WAS kinda great because it feels like you havent seen them in months but actually you just saw them ten days ago. the environment didnt even change. even a bit. the white board sat there with its wooden legs with marks of inks from the markers that the teachers use to write on its face. the chairs and tables both sat together, unmoved and untouched for ten silent days. the floor, dirty and dusty. like i said, the environment didnt even change much. and at the end of the day, i had fun since my goal on seeing my friends is accomplished

SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL WAS totally different. the test papers are distributed to us with our marks on them. and mine was quite disappointing as i only scored an E for physics and biology. and the most disappointing grade is my amaths and my chemistry which i have scored an F for it. it kinda sucks but just gotta live with it since i am the one who wrote those papers before the holidays.

THIRD DAY OF SCHOOL WAS kinda the same as the second day of school. papers distributed but the grades really made my day. i scored a B in english and an A in malay and the best effing part is i passed my maths paper. and this time without the help of external marks. i couldnt have been much happier.

TODAY WAS kinda quiet. i mean i was quiet. i wasnt in the mood to do anything. i feel week. i feel as if i only have my head on. by that i mean with no body at all. it was about something that i wouldnt blog about. but everything was worth it because i said what i have to say. and i also have only a homework which is bio.

thats all guys!

kill it if you have to

i am now announcing that officially

ITS OPEN BABY! COME IN. HAVE A SIP OF RED WINE, GET CRAZY AND LOSE YOUR MIND!