nobody has to know

hello :)

its a sunday morning today and its gonna be great indeed. i havent had my breakfast yet but i will be soon.

this week had been so tough. exams are here and there and we got a reunion for all students of 2009 at my ugama school.

the exams are well, okay. i cant say its easy and i cant say its hard. ill just pray so ill get satisfying marks.

the ugama school reunion was okay. met zhafri that day. i was stunned to see him since i havent seen him for a very long time. it was fun. we went through briefings and photo shoots. next week we are going to have a rehearsal (monday) for tuesday's occasion which is when the ex-principal of our school will hand our certificates for our SSRU which we took last week.

im gonna update next week for more updates.

a perfect picture crushed

hello :)

we had our teachers' day celebration yesterday at school and we were one of the performers participating in that very day. i couldve been more excited. it had been a wholesome of experience since we did a lot of practices and weve been working so hard for this to happen.

the morning starts with a regular day in school where we meet our friends and hang out but things tend to change when teachers starts to arrive with the wonderful saris. the bravest teacher would be mr. justin george. he wore a white kilt and a blue shirt with dress shoes. it was my favorite look of the day since i find it interesting and eccentric and out of the box. it is also a getaway of experiencing different cultures that our teachers hold on to.

the class party was awesome since the teahers and some students came and visited a classroom. one after another serving varieties of food, drinks and delicacies. it was a hell of a party and i cant admit that i was very excited to be part of a party host of a class party. thank God that the class didnt turn into a mess.

the performance was quite fine and fun. i had an ample of fun with the performers and the audience as well. theres just a few parts where i was discriminated and was called names. but i guess its okay. i mean there has to be someone who dislikes and doesnt support on what you do right? so yeah.

in the end everyone had a great time and it is worth enjoying and watching. it is a very memorable day since everyone was looking forward to it. i cant wait for a similar event such as this in the future which would be parents' day. who knows what might've happen during that day.

waiting and here it is

RAYA is over now and i kinda miss it.

anyways, raya this year had been fun from the beginning till the end. its very fun and adventurous since we went to a lot of houses more than we did before.

at times, we would totally not go raya since some peoples are coming over and i miss the chaos of hosting an open house for all our neighbors.

we visited a lot of houses and some of them are eccentric and some are quite exquisite and delightful. some of them are quite inspiring with floral themes and colorful wallpapers.

it has been a wholesome of experience and i cant wait for next year's raya and i hope itll be more fun and adventurous than this year :)

hello again!

well, our wireless didnt work last night so i made something with photoscape last night :)

gaga made that 'touch' haha

me with nyonyah aiman haha

this is my most favorite one. heee

okay bye guys :)

a trip of a lifetime

hello :)

as you guys know, me and my fellow cooleo best buds were among the students choosed to participate in a fieldtrip to the majlis ilmu held at icc this wednesday. mizan, deejah and aiman made my day totally and i dont regret having you guys there with me. anyways, let the pictures do all the talking.

offcourse a day out with the buds would be completed without a photo with deejah

my favorite photo taken. haha with mizan and his carpet-soft head. haha awww

too bad i didnt take a photo with aiman. sorry aiman. hehe and bye guys :)

have faith, give love and bring peace

photo from http://simplynorule.tumblr.com/

hello!

thats just some random quote i made up as my new post's tittle. and yes it sounds a little hippie-ish. but wth would care? after all i am the author of this blog. haha get over the fact. apakan

anyways, school reopened and our test paper is passed back to us. my result, not that satisfying. i failed my maths, amaths, chemistry and physics. thats like half of the subjects that i took. my dad took my report card this morning and my teacher said that i wasnt concentrating much at school. GAAH!

enough of those negative vibes. i need to improve. seriously. i passed only my bio for the science subjects which is not good. i gotta atleast pass my dmaths, physics and chemistry so that i could show that i could survive.

and, i sure hope that me and my family will have a great time together this weekend.

goodbye people.

living with it and loving it

hello :)

finally i get to update my blog. i havent updated it since my mid year exams started and yes, some were okay and some were somehow at an average level. anyways lets skip this part since im here to update my blog about some kinds of things which are hugely different from my mid year exams.

i want all of you readers to know that you cant judge a person or know a person just by a conversation. in some cases you may but in a lot of cases you cant. you have to know that person well to judge them. i experienced this particular case myself. and now that person is the person that i would rely on what ever my situation is.

anyways i have to end this post now. i will return back for another and i wish you guys a life of prosperity

its freaking open

now my blog is officially opened and now holidays are here :) ahehe

there comes a time

hello!

officially, my blog is closed for a short while since im studying for my mid year exams for the next 2 weeks. i will be opening this blog soon and updating it as soon as my exams are finished.

untie these strings of passion

hello

schools fine and studies are great. my problems had come to an end. i went back to my track of freedom and success. everything is balanced now and i am so happy to be back to the place i sat on before all of these happened.

life has its own ups and downs peoples and yes i mean this. at first i never did believe those kinds of quotes. i thought it was created for people to forget what their problems are. well i am wrong about this, again. everyone makes mistakes and nobody will be as perfect as they want to be.

i dont wanna do this anymore

HELLO!

life is good now. but ive been having problems lately and without me knowing it, im facing a hard phase in my life right now. beyond the smiles that ive put on, beyond the laughter ive been in and beyond the happy feeling that ive been faking, i seriously am not in a fun position now. all i know now is im like this thread and im waiting for someone with the scissor to cut me or save me.

i hate days like this and i dont wanna do this anymore. i dont wanna fight and i dont wanna hurt anyone. i cant do this and i dont wanna do this. i hope that it will stop as i am totally unhappy with these kind of situation

dont kill me

photo courtesy of http://www.simplynorule.tumblr.com/

HELLO!

well my days had gone pretty well nowadays. with friends helping me and my family supporting me. to tell you guys the truth, its not that bad after all. i am one of those people who are scared of changes. i fear that it might ruin everything and change it into something bad. well, the changes in my life now makes me realize that not all changes lead to bad things. moving on is one of them.

with happy and inspirational music, everything goes pretty well and the idea of moving on becomes more solid as your trust and belief that you can do it becomes more solid too. at first i thought its just a myth to make someone feel better. but i tried it and yes, it has earned my confirmation that it works.

and now i would say that i truely know who my real friends are now as it is very obvious on who had been there supporting me and helping me and the ones who doesnt. now i can know who to lean on and who to care for. and the person reading this should feel that theyre one of them if they feel like they are.

p/s: you dont need love to make you feel better because thats what your friends do, to make you feel better about yourself

it will get better through whatever

last week had been a busy and stressful week. nothing really was fine. i had friendship problems. this impacts my whole performance in school was affected by it. i failed every additional mathematics tests and i almost fail the rest. my performance in school was hung by a thread and so does my friendship.

not only my friendship with my friend and my performance in school, but my essay competition was also affected. i am not confident if i would win and if i do win, itll be a miracle because well, i was quite pressured with whatever happened on that day and the day before it. in simple words i was seeking for someone to talk to and this would be my girlfriends and my family. well, theyre the only one i had at that time. they were the only one i could trust and theyre the only one that i could rely on.

yesterday which was sunday, i went to my grandparents house in tutong. their home is my rehab and the place where i could relax and lie my head down at my grandma's thighs while she plays with my hair. hahaha well, if there is a place where i could think it over and put myself back together from the pieces that ive broken to, my grands' place would be the place.

today is a new day and a new chapter in my life. i know that ive been running through problems and all but now, i could see my friend happy and all. that is enough. even way enough. more better then getting him/her to speak to me back. today, everyone seems to be happy and i want to maintain this settings. now all i could do is repair my friendship with the people that ive been not talking to.

overall i thank my family and friends for helping me make this day become a reality and proves to me that these kind of days would never be a dream to me anymore because it happened to myself today.

a great greet of appreciation to:

my family; my sisters, ajirah and assyura. my aunt, marlina. my grandma and my brothers. i love you guys as my words of love would never be enough to prove my love to you guys.

my friends; my girls, deejah aiman rabi qilah abby eme. fiqah, nad, nisah and the other ladies. and my guy friends, waly and mizan and the other dudes. i love you guys lots and i really mean this

and i would really really really thank my mom for giving me love, courage, support, care and confidence. thanks for telling me that days like of what ive dreamt of would only be happening in my dreams would happen in reality. and making me believe that you can be happy even when youre alone. thanks mommy. i love you and ill always be your jack and will always be like this forever. for you mommy.

thanks for these inspirational, caring, supporting and encouraging peoples, i was able to start a new chapter in my life.

friendship may kill but it will never die

im currently chatting with one of my closest friends,

sawi aka nasurah aka AIMANN!

haha well let the photos speak connect with you telepathically. haha sounds very sci-fi-ish but let it be. because of sci-fi starwars is a hit movie soo.. haha okay im gonna start shutting up now.

zul aka lemiding?.. LOVE IT! (y) hahaha

aiman nazurah
deejah
zulhilme (:

aiman made this btw. its soo pretty! haha

and she didnt forget to draw for deejavou too! how generous *ngampu. hahaha

crooked teeth~ GO AIMAN! haha juburr

and finally, friends for life :B

thanks for reading

box your ass off

okay obviously from the tittle of this post, its about BOXING! haha its not actually about boxing though. its about a movie about boxing.

joe frazier

muhammad ali

thriller in manila
the movies about a documentary about the worlds most controversial boxing fight between both, most sensational boxers during that time, joe frazier and muhammad ali. well i might not know joe frazier before ive watched this movie on cinemax but i surely know muhammad ali. ive heard lots and lots of stories about him. great ones actually.

this movies quite interesting and if i wish i wouldve been there watching this match but unfortunately, my parents were just 12 or so and thus, i wasnt born YET! haha but well atleast i can watch it now! on youtube lagi. haha jk people. ive never even have this interest in boxing. but i am interested in these fellow boxers' matches.

i guess this is just it friends. ill end this post right here. thanks for reading anyways

caught in the cage of fear

its been a very very very very long time since this blog hadnt been updated. you could say that it was abandoned for a week or two but well its updated now!

SCHOOLLL!!! the day that ive been waiting for. haha well i was hoping to see my friends because i miss them a lot! so guys i miss you. haha skali adakan urg trasa. hahahahaha becaliii.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL WAS kinda great because it feels like you havent seen them in months but actually you just saw them ten days ago. the environment didnt even change. even a bit. the white board sat there with its wooden legs with marks of inks from the markers that the teachers use to write on its face. the chairs and tables both sat together, unmoved and untouched for ten silent days. the floor, dirty and dusty. like i said, the environment didnt even change much. and at the end of the day, i had fun since my goal on seeing my friends is accomplished

SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL WAS totally different. the test papers are distributed to us with our marks on them. and mine was quite disappointing as i only scored an E for physics and biology. and the most disappointing grade is my amaths and my chemistry which i have scored an F for it. it kinda sucks but just gotta live with it since i am the one who wrote those papers before the holidays.

THIRD DAY OF SCHOOL WAS kinda the same as the second day of school. papers distributed but the grades really made my day. i scored a B in english and an A in malay and the best effing part is i passed my maths paper. and this time without the help of external marks. i couldnt have been much happier.

TODAY WAS kinda quiet. i mean i was quiet. i wasnt in the mood to do anything. i feel week. i feel as if i only have my head on. by that i mean with no body at all. it was about something that i wouldnt blog about. but everything was worth it because i said what i have to say. and i also have only a homework which is bio.

thats all guys!

kill it if you have to

i am now announcing that officially

ITS OPEN BABY! COME IN. HAVE A SIP OF RED WINE, GET CRAZY AND LOSE YOUR MIND!

we dont match

as i have my tests coming along and it is the 'exam fever' period now so. sorry

this blog will be opened soon after the tests are done and posts are going to be posted as soon as possible

walk the walk and talk the talk

HELLO!

yesterday was maulud and like i said its one of the focused events every year. have you guys enjoyed yours? i did! i enjoyed my maulud with wawan and his brother aiman. well, he made my maulud this year the best ever. thanks buddy. i will always remember it!

anyways, i met a lot of friends yesterday. mostly from my ex-school mates. and there is an angle of majority that i didn't remember their name. but i do remember their faces though. they look fimiliar enough to me. hahaha lots haven't changed much. and the bullies, well, what comes around goes around. hahaha

its too bad i didn't took pictures yesterday when we walked the route. i regreted not taking pictures because its more better then khatam last year. hahaha its the best EVER! i sure hope we could do this next year. and did i mentioned that only 2 students including me are from year 9 science who came yesterday. i know sad right. but then, at least i had a great time.

ciao

after all the drinks and the bars that we've been through

hello guys!

well this week has been a really tough week. the focus of the week is


23rd- brunei's 26th independence day
25th- muvit's birthday
27th- perarakan maulud nabi

as you guys know, i am one of the representatives to march for our beloved school st. margaret's school. kira bangga lah tu kna bagi pom-pom sama beg free haahahaha. i had fun with my friends on our way there.

during march practice in bandar, me and my friends use to dine there at jolibee. ordering the same food everyday. that meal n2 and chocolate sundaes! well i enjoyed those days and i sure wish we could do it again. though, we only went for 2 rehearsals hahaha but they were days to remember

i miss the practices that we had and the rehearsals and most importantly, the bus driver with his bus. hahaha jk. i actually missed the fun times that i've had with my friends. i also have made friends with some new peoples that i fear on talking to. well, thats some goals that i've achieved so far. there's more to come.

muvit's birthday went well too. well, he seems to enjoy his haircut and also his visit to the immigiration office where he made his ic since he's officially 12. awwww. hahaha well, as long as he has a great time then, no one can argue about that anymore. hahaha

the perarakan will be tomorrow. gotta get my ass up early tomorrow. im so excited for tomorrow as i am every year. its like one of my most focused occasions every year besides my birthday and some other things. hope everything goes well tomorrow.

RIP alexander mcqueen

yesterday was the day the owner of the fashion house alexander mcqueen, lee mcqueen passed away in the age of 40. i just picked this topic up from twitter as 'alexander mcqueen' was a trending topic yesterday. i thought he was an actor but he's actually a designer. you guys may think he's like them chanel,versace,bebe or armani designers but look at the creative looks that he'd created! hahaha (btw idk anything. i just googled em up. hahaha)

lee mcqueen, the genius. eseh hahaha ndawah. hahaha he's blonde. hahaha judgemental

look at em heels. baru rugged klau kamu pakai skulah. jeles cigu kamu pkai killer heels. haha

colors~ hahaha hypnotised sudh. hahaha lalai hahahah

baju ani bisai ni mun pakai mengidang minuman time urang beraya. hahaha tekait kan cawan hahaha

ahhh, nice choice bagi yg kan chinese new year. haha bali seset hahaha jkjk

picture perfect

i wanna post some pictures in which i've taken this past 3 days. two from yesterday's outing and one from the outing the day before yesterday. enjoyy walaupun secuil. hahaha

i love them lavender blonde

hello earthlings! welcome to earth. haha jubur.today was awesome! banai. haha it was a little interesting because lots of peoples aren't coming to school today! okay, nothing interesting. another tanning sesh today. well, differences can be made and i know who's tanned and who's not. im not saying that im not tanned, i am. but, well truthfully everyone is.

today also, one of the soldiers/perverts/whatever you wanna call them, made one of us pissed because he said this to a girl in form 4 'eh makin itam sudh ni. nampak sudh' and she's a girl so, she's officially pissed. she's a girl for crying out loud man! grow up! hahaha mental

and btw,



i wanna say happy chinese new year to all my fellow chinese friends like, abby! haha atu jua ganya haha. well, like what the picture says i wish you 'a happy & prosperous Chinese New Year'

stick out your tongue like a million bucks

hello everyone!

okay this post i guess isn't that simple but then, it involves something that had gone through my life ever since i stopped blogging the last, well i don't know. 3 weeks? well yes, life's full of ups and downs lately especially in the friendship corner. lots and lots of controversial events happened.

here's a good tip for you guys so that you'll live your life in prosperity:

'NEVER TRUST SOMEONE THAT YOU CAN'T TRUST ESPECIALLY SOMEONE THAT YOU KNOW THAT CAN'T BE TRUSTED'

now that's a very good tip for us all. okay, life's good now actually. unlike the pass 2 weeks ago. well, sort of. we could say that its a week of glee everyday. well, mostly. some of them are days of glee with a thread of problems. but then its okay. the more problems you have in your life the more interesting it becomes.

you heat me up when i have a cold because we're friends

HELLLOOOO peoples!

sorry i didn't get the chance to blog much because im soo freakin busy with school and life stuffs. lots of conflicts happened and lots of fun stuffs too! soo this is my post.


i am now sick and i am totally am having a cold. GOSH! and yes. i feeel soo drowwsyy.. hahaha anyways fun stuffs happened and yes like i said conflicts happened too. too many to mention and i am tired to tell so so you guys just have to read it from my tweets on twitter (;

okay ciao. aur revoir and auf wiedersehen