it will get better through whatever

last week had been a busy and stressful week. nothing really was fine. i had friendship problems. this impacts my whole performance in school was affected by it. i failed every additional mathematics tests and i almost fail the rest. my performance in school was hung by a thread and so does my friendship.

not only my friendship with my friend and my performance in school, but my essay competition was also affected. i am not confident if i would win and if i do win, itll be a miracle because well, i was quite pressured with whatever happened on that day and the day before it. in simple words i was seeking for someone to talk to and this would be my girlfriends and my family. well, theyre the only one i had at that time. they were the only one i could trust and theyre the only one that i could rely on.

yesterday which was sunday, i went to my grandparents house in tutong. their home is my rehab and the place where i could relax and lie my head down at my grandma's thighs while she plays with my hair. hahaha well, if there is a place where i could think it over and put myself back together from the pieces that ive broken to, my grands' place would be the place.

today is a new day and a new chapter in my life. i know that ive been running through problems and all but now, i could see my friend happy and all. that is enough. even way enough. more better then getting him/her to speak to me back. today, everyone seems to be happy and i want to maintain this settings. now all i could do is repair my friendship with the people that ive been not talking to.

overall i thank my family and friends for helping me make this day become a reality and proves to me that these kind of days would never be a dream to me anymore because it happened to myself today.

a great greet of appreciation to:

my family; my sisters, ajirah and assyura. my aunt, marlina. my grandma and my brothers. i love you guys as my words of love would never be enough to prove my love to you guys.

my friends; my girls, deejah aiman rabi qilah abby eme. fiqah, nad, nisah and the other ladies. and my guy friends, waly and mizan and the other dudes. i love you guys lots and i really mean this

and i would really really really thank my mom for giving me love, courage, support, care and confidence. thanks for telling me that days like of what ive dreamt of would only be happening in my dreams would happen in reality. and making me believe that you can be happy even when youre alone. thanks mommy. i love you and ill always be your jack and will always be like this forever. for you mommy.

thanks for these inspirational, caring, supporting and encouraging peoples, i was able to start a new chapter in my life.